My blog is a place I wish to document all that I feel and experience. So I do not feel hesitated to share what I am going through from the past few days. Although I do feel uneasy of what people will think reading about the state of my mind lately.
I feel that my sense of direction has been misplaced. I have always suffered from timidness and this time it feels worse. I have always been fainthearted. :'( I do not feel confident enough to do certain things. Even a minute decision in a day whether I wish to read now or go for a walk; I simply seem to be confused in all. I consider doing one thing and I know I have to do it but then eventually I end up doing something totally different. I might be procrastinating as well.
I have so many things in my mind for my blog as well but my lack of certainty as to what I wish to achieve in a day is really getting on my nerves. I either feel I have nothing productive to do and slack off or I simply am aware there is a list of things to be completed and my anxiety kills my productivity. I know it might not make any sense to some but I really feel all must have passed through this stage.
I want to make few changes, bring some management into my life so that I start feeling more controlled of what is going on in my life. Definitely not all go through constant ups in their lives. All have lows! So I hope my readers won’t judge me. I am struggling through the condition of my mind. Maybe the lack of surety in anything that I commence has got me thinking there will be bad outcomes to my efforts. And so I am reluctant in putting any efforts.
I don’t know but something has really made me confused in everything I wish to do in a day of my life! I want to start scheduling each day! I wish to achieve what remains pending and start anew. I wish to document how I do so so that it helps others who feel the same or are going through similar situation.
Do not worry all I need is some strength and courage. 🙂
STAY STRONG. BLESS ALL.